Choose empowerment

To be completely honest, the last month of research has been dull and frustrating for me. I have been running hundreds of simulations, which have yielded results that make no sense (I hope you science peeps can relate). In general, my passion for learning has been dwindling with every negative comment from my advisor and…

Research: The struggle is real (part II)

In my last post, I mentioned how difficult research can be and how important it is to overcome the fear of failure (growth mindset, anyone?). However, I want to be clear: I love doing research. I’m what my sister calls a “supernerd” when it comes to math, physics, and programming 😀 However, I think pretty…

Research: The struggle is real (part I)

I LOVE grad school. I get paid (I’m in a PhD program). I don’t have to take classes anymore unless I want to. And I get to do research. But to be honest research is freaking hard. You don’t have a lab manual telling you what to do. You aren’t taught everything in a class,…

Toxic relationships, breakups, and the importance of friendship

To be completely honest, I kind of sucked at friendship my whole life. Due to constant chaos and trauma during my childhood, I grew up with a lot of anxiety and insecurity, so making and keeping friends didn’t come easily to me. I also have what my therapist calls “daddy issues”, which means that I…

The Qualifying Exam

I did it. I took my qualifying exam. For those of you who aren’t familiar with the PhD journey, the qualifying exam is when you have to write a proposal for your thesis (which I, in my infinite wisdom, chose to type in Latex) AND give a presentation of your proposed thesis in front of…

Girl Code Book Review

I received this book called Girl Code by Cara Alwill Leyba back in April when I was at the ACS (American Chemical Society) conference, which might seem kind of strange given that the book is written by an entrepreneur for entrepreneurs. But what the heck, it was free – so I took it. And I…

Growth vs. Fixed Mindsets

I haven’t been online much for the past couple weeks because I’ve been CRAZY busy preparing for my qualifying exam and finishing up two research projects. I’m also training for a marathon (if you don’t already think I’m crazy enough 😅). However, I figured I should take a break and write about something I’ve been…

Why dress codes matter

I don’t know about you guys, but dress codes have always been a bit confusing to me. I never really knew whether I agreed with dress codes or not, especially since they are typically much stricter for women than men. However, I think I’ve finally reached the point where I have developed my own dress code…

The never-ending application process: How to stand out

I don’t know about you, but applying for schools, fellowships, grants, awards, etc. is daunting. And it’s not just because I don’t want to put in the work – it’s because I have to put myself out there and be a bit vulnerable, and the fear of rejection can be just as bad as asking…

Birth control is great but…

So it’s been over a week since I’ve posted, primarily because I’ve been binge-watching 13 Reasons Why on Netflix (I hope you appreciate my honesty :P). I was planning on writing a post about it, but it’s really heavy and I need some time to process. While I thought it was a great show with really…

Sex ed: My experience

As I’ve mentioned previously, I grew up in a very religious household where anything sexual was taboo. My parents never talked to me or my siblings about it, and we weren’t allowed to watch movies with sex scenes or listen to most popular music. I also went to a private Christian school for most of…

The ACS Conference

I haven’t been very active online recently because I have been prepping for and attending the American Chemical Society (ACS) conference in San Francisco this week and I finally have some free time 🙂 This is my first conference as a grad student, so I learned A LOT from many amazing people, and I thought…